July 2nd is my 5th anniversary.
Anniversary of what?
Anniversary to my dress rehearsal… of my death!
Yes, it’s been 5 years since I had my near fatal heart attack.
Wow! For me? It seems like so much longer.
So much has happened in the past 5 years.
My grandson Jett is 5 years old!
We have new additions to our family.
I have a new job.
And yet—some things are still the same.
Life is life—if you are going to live it, you might get your knees and elbows scraped, from time to time.
But the Big Difference now than 5 years ago?
The Trust I have in Christ.
I’ve lived through a moment when I wasn’t sure if I would live or die.
I’ve had that crisis where you had a choice—and I chose to trust.
I’ve watched my life pass before me—and finally understood—I was mortal, but Christ is immortal!
All of it has gotten me to the place where I know—I put my trust in thee, oh Lord!
And that’s what’s different—instead of trying to do it myself, carry the load, figure it out…
I am learning what I can’t do—and I am turning it over to the only I know who can do it—Jesus!
And don’t think that this turnabout was easy for me.
I am someone who is always trying to “fix” things.
Problems for my family, my friends, my colleagues.
And yet—I am faced with the realization that sometimes, I cannot “fix” this!
Whatever is the latest problem that is plaguing someone I love.
But I know who can!
And 5 years later—with a heart that has been healed by my Lord and Savior 3 and a half years now…
I know that He is in control—Not ME!
And… should you find out that another heart attack came my way and I am now walking streets of gold…
I know that is always a possibility—but I still place my trust in thee, oh Lord…
Just know that I am so thankful and so appreciative of the 5+ years that the Lord gave me after my dress rehearsal.
You see… I know that He can call me home at any time, and I am ready to meet my Maker…
But I also know that, until He does, I will continue to live a life that is pleasing to Him and brings Him glory.
And… I will keep trusting the only one who could extend my life these 5 years…
I have a heart full of gratitude… for the life I have lived Since my heart attack!
There has never been One Day that I have taken for granted—Not One!
Proverbs 3:5-6 reminds us:
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Trust with all your heart? When the doctor calls it the Widow Maker, and you look at your bride and know…
Lean not to your own understanding? When you didn’t see “that” coming and it turns your life upside down…
Acknowledge Him in everything you do? When you make Him the center of all you touch or breathe-just because…
He Will direct your path? When you wake up each day and ask the Lord “what would you like me to do for You today?
That’s how my life has changed in these last 5 years.
I don’t ask what HE can do for me…He’s done enough…I’m still breathing, with a medically proven healed heart…
What more could I possibly want or need?
Not one thing.
Maybe you just need to be reminded—God is in control—He is your Direction—
The only place you really want to be is—wherever HE directs.
Quit trying to tell God what He needs to do with your life…
And give up and let God show you what He wants you to do with His life that He has given you!
Don’t dare Him to give you a heart attack—just to get your attention!