I Saw My Papa In The Mirror!

I saw my Papa today-looking at me in the Mirror, and…

I was so glad to see Him!

2/20/08

 

selected only those who knew him..who may still remember him...who hopefully, will smile at that memory.

 

Maybe it's with the 122 pounds loss...maybe it's with the white hair on the temples of my face, maybe it's the blue eyes...maybe it's that smirk...but....

 

i saw a man in the mirror today...and he reminded me of who I am becoming...

and...I smiled!

He was the one man I promised myself I would never be like

Would never want to have any traits like him

Never resemble him in any way...

and yet, today...I cried when I saw him....

and, I missed him and wished he were here...

I welcomed him from my past

Into my present

as he gently shared that he was a preview of my future...

and, with that smirk and smile that was so him...

I accepted the inevitable...I am becoming Joe Scag...

and...that made me smile!

and, for the first time...I realized how proud it made me to be like him...his passion for his family, his commitment to his children, his moments of fancy as he reminisced about baseball or WWII or being in London or his Ice Truck route...

his slight of hand tricks with the baseball...his quarters that he would give his grandkids..his laugh..that uncontrollable belly laugh that brought tears to his eyes and ours as we laughed with him as he recounted his life stories...

all the moments of his life that were full of hope...

the moments that made his blue eyes twinkle...

 

maybe you too can look in the mirror and see that one parent you swore you would never be like

swore you would never look like

swore you would never act like....

and yet, here we all are...in the time of life we never saw coming and NEVER thought we'd ever get old enough to be...MIDDLE AGE!

and...if we look closely in the mirror..there they are!

The one parent we never thought we'd see again...

staring back at us, smiling one last time, reminding us of the good times we shared because...the bad ones really have faded with time...

and...previewing for us...that someday....

our children will also experience this epiphany...

as they too will look in the same mirror of life

and see...each of us!

so today, for all of you who knew the man I swore I would never be like...

I share this joy of seeing him in the mirror...

and, I celebrate the good that he left me...

the memories I cherish...

the wishes I have if could recreate them with him...as that book says...for just one more day...

and the knowledge that someday...

I will see him again,

that same smirk...

those twinkling blue eyes....

and, he will call me the one name I hate to hear from anyone else...

 

"Al....it's good to see you again--I've missed you!"

 

and...I will feel the joy that only comes from the love of a parent...that rhapsody of childhood, no matter our age!

 

And, I will be able to tell him that finally...

I am just so proud to be Joe Scag's son...

and I wear my resemblance as a badge of honor...

 

here's to all of our parents who have gone on before us...

From Seawright to Mama Welfare(Miss Becky) to Uncle Willard...

may each of you catch a glimpse of them in your mirror today....and hopefully, that glimpse too will make you smile!

 

and someday, who knows...maybe our children will see us, in that age so distant from them today...MIDDLE AGE...

and....hopefully, they too will be glad to see us..and smile!

 

my love to each of you....

I guess lately, I have just been haunted by mortality...

something I can truly tell you I have never faced before...

guess it's the white hair on my temples...

but...like I always say...

I have my reservation made...

just not in a hurry to get there,

but someday...maybe you too will remember me..and smile!

 

until i can't anymore...

still making memories that will last a lifetime!